Saturday, 18 June 2011

Got my shit together

I have my shit together. I have for about 4 years now. It's nice. I work in a job that i love, with people that i like and students who make me proud to know them. It challenges me, it makes me grow. 
I have been living out of home for years. I pay all my own bills, i manage my money, i can save what i feel to be a nice amount each pay. I donate to charity. 
I don't have a boyfriend. 
But you know what is vaguely worrying about that? I kinda really like my life at the moment without one. I like the selfish way i can operate at the moment. Sleep till 11 if i want. Lay in the middle of the bed. Not have to shave my legs if i don't want to. Not have to cook if i don't want to. Answerable to no one. 
This doesn't bode well if i ever want to become coupled up. What if there comes a point in your life that you get too used to having your own way? Isn't that one of the reasons "experts" say that we get married later? Us "Gen Y" are too selfish? Too used to having things our own way? 

I like to think that if the right guy came along that this would all disappear. That the notion that it was me sacrificing something (my life right now) wouldn't even be a sacrifice. That it would just be having the right person in my life. But then i wonder if that's putting too much pressure on the other person, or too much pressure on future relationships. Too many theortetical check-boxes that they have to meet for them to be allowed entry into my life. I know what i don't want. I have that sorted out. I don't want drama. I don't want it to be work from the moment that we get together. I don't want dishonesty. 

Too many checkboxes. Better off alone. #foreveralone 

(Actually, thinking about reclaiming #foreveralone with a ! Celebrating the good single stuff. eg: 'Sleeping in the middle of the bed! #ForeverAlone!' or 'Got to eat all of the chill beef dumplings #ForeverAlone!' Good right? #Imasadguy)

@superhotmel

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