If i had to pick a facebook relationship status to have with my brain and my body it would be 'it's complicated'. But even then that's an upgrade from when i was 16. Then i would have been blocking my body and reporting it for harassment.
The past week:
Saturday: 'oh body you're awesome! You fit into smaller clothes! have you seen your calves lately!?!'
Sunday: "i hate you. you're ugly. that coldsore means you can't even kiss The Boy. Fat load of good you are. Your arse is too big for that dress"
Monday: "why aren't you running today? You walked 6km in an hour. like that counts. You need to run. work isn't an excuse"
Tuesday: "Oh that new dress is super cute (and a 12!) and look how cute The Boy thinks you are in it! And you got a Distinction in that assignment. We're not a bad team!"
Wednesday: "Too many calories. cut them down. go running. but don't forget about work. and your Masters."
Thursday: "i'm too tired to care. one thing at a time. one priority at a time. This salad is tasty!"
So tired. But the simple fact is that having two good days is progress from when i was say, 16. I may still have issues, but i have confidence too. And if i could go back to my 16 year old self it would be to try and convince her that she has reasons to be confident too...
The past week:
Saturday: 'oh body you're awesome! You fit into smaller clothes! have you seen your calves lately!?!'
Sunday: "i hate you. you're ugly. that coldsore means you can't even kiss The Boy. Fat load of good you are. Your arse is too big for that dress"
Monday: "why aren't you running today? You walked 6km in an hour. like that counts. You need to run. work isn't an excuse"
Tuesday: "Oh that new dress is super cute (and a 12!) and look how cute The Boy thinks you are in it! And you got a Distinction in that assignment. We're not a bad team!"
Wednesday: "Too many calories. cut them down. go running. but don't forget about work. and your Masters."
Thursday: "i'm too tired to care. one thing at a time. one priority at a time. This salad is tasty!"
So tired. But the simple fact is that having two good days is progress from when i was say, 16. I may still have issues, but i have confidence too. And if i could go back to my 16 year old self it would be to try and convince her that she has reasons to be confident too...
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